Sometimes we have to look back…

I’ll be posting a series of status updates from Facebook that inspired blogging…. I’ll add some pictures now in, too. I’m not ashamed of how I look anymore. Yes, I have a long way to go but I’m further than I have ever been.

Here’s a post from right around the beginning of November, 2018. Just over a month after I joined 13 Stripes.

I remember my first class like it was yesterday. I couldn’t get up off the floor. I couldn’t reach the rower bar. I could barely squat further down than a few inches. I felt terrible and I felt like I looked terrible. I was embarrassed and ashamed almost every day of how I looked and so I used food to soothe me. I tried to embrace the ‘big and beautiful’ thing but I didn’t feel beautiful. I knew I needed to change something. 

So I did.

And now I can get up off the floor and do so much more than I ever imagined. 

I owe a thanks to so many people… but mostly I owe that thank you to myself. The one that still wanted to live and be healthy. The one who had just enough fight in her to walk into the gym. 

Never doubt me. I will not quit.